Yaya interaction day

Griffin is having their Yaya interaction day in school this afternoon. They won't be having classes just fun and games with the yayas. He doesn't have a yaya so a few months ago when they started talking about this activity, he was telling me he wanted one. He of course wanted to bring a yaya to school just like his classmates. When we got home from school yesterday, he was telling me about the gifts the other kids were to give their yayas. He didn't get one because he has no yaya. I asked him who else doesn't have a yaya and he told me only he did not have one. I felt kind of sad for him as he could not experience the bonding the other kids would have with their yayas. I also felt guilty for being a grumpy mommy specially when he's being "makulit". I feel stressed taking care of two demanding kids everyday. I am guilty of getting mad easily, having little patience and shouting. I really don't like being a monster mommy. I pray to God for me to be more patient and to understand that Griffin and Hailey are just kids. I know they love me and both want my full attention. It's not an easy task trying to split myself in two to satisfy both of them but I know it's not an excuse to be mad all the time. To be loved so much by my two babies is a blessing. I have to stop being stressed all the time to get rid of the monster in me.